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modest proposal...

As you've asked for black and white,
May I send these lines to you
In the tacit hope you might
Take my type at least as true

Let this distance disappear
And our hearts approach from far
Till we come to be as near
As acrostically we are.

Now thats how it was to be, i hope it was all this, i know u dont function like the others around you, and thats what makes you, dont play games, your feelings are genuine, maybe not towards me, but they are, and thats commendable, i still continue to hope and pray but i love you even more just because u are still there...

now i know, you may think that i am just be in a phase and this will pass, but thats not me and its impossible to know you and let the love slide by, untouched, unnoticed....just because people dont tell you that often and fondly, doesnt mean its not true, my words might hardly mean anything to you, you'll never admit to it, but still, i dont wish to flatter, but i speak of what i see clearly, and i dont know how anyon…

Motor ONN hai kya??

hey ppl...............
well those around me knw that THAT title is NOT that wierd(maybe!!) well this is the tragedy i tell u but i must now chalk down a list of all the cute guys around me, its necessary:

1. The Chaddi Man(ehem.....cant write his real name here, thats not as cute as him)- hes cute even when hes stupid, which is quite often these days, ask priya!!

2. Robin, the Motor man- he's my neighbour and hes OH MY GOD CUTE, as long as u are just looking at him, i mean hes all intelligent looking and if god forbids he speaks its usually, MOTOR ONN HAI KYA??..................(no i havent forgotten the spelling of ON).......but hes sooooo cute!!

3. Prakhar- well not the same kinda cute as the above two but his actions make him cute, but about that later.

4. ankur, his pari is his WORRY(and vice versa!!)..........ankur is no doubt verry sweet and thats makes him cute.

and surprisingly that's it, no wonder i have NO love life!!!!
well yeah i havent put HIM in this list coz hes ALWAYS…

love, actually??

hmm, th above mentioned subject need not always be associated with happiness, like everythin else, love too comes with strings attached, to get to the happily ever after, if any......even if u r sad, its a part of that feeling, when we are sad we forget all the gud times we've had courtesy the same love, love gives u the butterflies, which make it all worth the effort, the meloncholy is a part of it, makes u realise how important the person really is...... i know i know when u cry ur eyes out for that someone, but then a simple message, a small smile, a wink, a call or even THE green shirt, bring home the realization that it makes it all stays the same, u do not stop loving someone, circumstances do not change the love, do not diminish it, u may be with someone else, whatever the reason may be, but the love still makes u light up when He walks into the next time i am sad abt my ..ehem.. life...........i'll read this post and i guess it'll make me…

first day....again!!

hey college started today, i cant believe its been an year since i started at AMITY, i like it now and pakka wudnt trade it in for anything, but got to say since its been an year, coll is not the same without a certain people around even if its for day, or in some cases much longer!!.. ......priya wasnt there, missed her, and although i knew HE wasnt coming, for some odd reason fixed my gaze on the door, quite expectantly, GOD!! but its gonna be hard to get used to, trust me.
looking forward to everything!!

2 more days........

2 more days and college!!!
going to miss the nano sambar kutri gang the most!!

saw one of my favourite movies yesterday......i believe everyone should watch it once atleast!!

well so rahul khanna + nandita das+ great story + history.............AAMIR doesnt take much to make one happy now does shopping today!!


i saw parts of annie hall today, although at times i dont understand woody allen, but i sure do prefer him to the mindless crap people watch nowadays(sumtimes i do too)..... and then theres this line in the movie,which i definitely do understand....

"Even as a kid, I always went for the wrong women. I feel that's my problem. When my mother took me to see Snow White, everyone fell in love with Snow White. I immediately fell for the wicked queen."

love it absolutely, and even more if u get it.

u knw sumtimes i think, people should build that wall around themselves and never let it crumble, that way atleast u wont lose track of ur goal(if any)......maybe.dont know, maybe i should too, just focus on earning money and all, work my ass off, put emotions aside, maybe it'll help na? that'll be a good life too.


P.s.-anuj, no i am not trying to get u to call me, nothing is wrong with me. lots of love!! :)
मधुर प्रतीक्षा ही जब इतनी, प्रिय तुम आते तब क्या होता?

mera number aa gaya!!!

Shopping, yes the proper kind!!!!

went to westside and the great india place, couldnt believe it but bought the most adorable pair of flats, pink and polka dots, little white bow, very converse like, but in short AMAZING!!!
also bought a new green kurti but thats secondary, the shoes are my first love, mom got a yellow kurta, says i can borrow it too, but i dont see that happening in the near future...:) .......... i also went to the Om book shop and finally bought TO KILL A MOCKING BIRD, to break the danielle steel spell, i guess its going to be good, certainly hope it saves me from boredom for the next couple of days.....i finished THE LONG ROAD HOME, danielle steel, it wasnt bad, not pathbreaking or anything, just that i realize that there is a certain set pattern in all steel's books, the ones i have read so far seem to be awfully predictable.well yeah, so moving on, i enquired the price of a bookmark at the book shop today and was outraged when the guy quoted Rs.95 for a fancy…

by god ki kasam!!

I miss samarth yaar, terribly!!!............. :(
well its hard to not miss someone you have known since u were 2 yrs old, anyways...Sam’s always been around, so much so that I have always taken him for granted, now that he's in far Bangalore, I truly miss him, I mean I always yell at him when we are on the phone coz he’s always discussing cigarettes with some buddy of his, when I am on the line, I mean come on, u call me SUTTA aright but is that really necessary??, its ironical, I mean we cant call each other often now, he has his exams and stuff and I have mine too, and there were days in school when he used to call me sooo frequently, that sometimes I used to ditch his calls, since we never had anything to talk about but we'd still be on the phone, for hours constantly taking turns repeating the same "aur bata" line, and it would seem useless and take forever.....he'd never ever put the phone down, I’d always say samarth mujhe jana hai,and he'd say KYUN, the…


u know sometimes i think i am all wrong abt this, my theory of how i should live my life, maybe i shouldnt have all these people around me, nope, i shouldnt, i am gonna run away one of these days, i'd like to, but i knw i am incapable of that too.i am a dumb person, i was a dumb kid, labelled stupid, and not surprised by it, just for the simple reason that i laughed when i shouldnt, i spoke when i wasnt needed to, i cried when it wasnt allowed, but i did take instructions well, which has always been construed of a lack of having a mind of my own, hence tagging me a follower than a leader, i was/am never intelligent enough, never polite enough, never responsible enough, not spirited, not gifted, lacking confidence(forget why??, thats not important)...just never enough, to satisfy those around me, to live upto their expectations, its not their fault u see, i dont learn so i am still the same, plus i am selfish enough to want what i want and expect generously from the others, i am fa…

hum aa gaye!!


well missed u a little bit, was infact looking for something substantial to write about, so now that I don’t have anything I am just going to go back to the usual. So let’s see, although in the past few days my life hasn’t changed drastically or anything, but these days were certainly fun.

Well, u know those times when you are feeling completely low, are moping around the house hating yourself, and then voila, some people come along and u are all better?..... well that’s what Anuj always does, and I completely Love him for it, I know there are times when we don’t talk for months but then talking to him makes it all better, its great, just coz he gets me, I don’t have to give unnecessary explanations, justifications et al, well and just coz we can laugh about any given thing but can be very serious too, mind it. Neha D. still believes that I LURRRRRVE Anuj, maybe just coz she does, well I do just not like THAT, yes life’s hard without him but still I am the only gal who knows h…

that's amore.......

Hello hello ……..

I went out today, by the time I got back home, it had begun to rain, well so theres a bahaana to go all CHHAP CHHAP, he he, great weather, feels great!!

You know, there are times when amidst a casual conversation something big strikes you, an idea or just this realization, well today happened to be one of those days, and this conversation with him today was one of those conversations, so what I definitely don’t have is PATIENCE, zilch!!, none at all.

So you know what, sometimes it makes me feel like I am not going anywhere with this, well maybe true, but then again, I like it the way it is, he’s my choice, well I may not be his but its worth the effort just to know that……….aaah forget it.

Maybe I should let love be love, not necessarily give it a name….its difficult, but maybe that’s how it should be.

So went out and still bought no books, shame on me, as a punishment more Danielle Steel ,

So “people” should blog more, so that I get a reprieve from Ms.Steel. Thank you ji.


yeah yeah dont get too excited, i got up all jumpy too, so this is wat happens everyday at my place , mum tries to wake me up, i shut out her voice using the nice cushions, then she shouts, then i am reluctantly dragged out of bed and so on.....................
today to wake me up she tries this new trick,"get up, shopping today!!" and voila i am up, just like that and i obediently make my bed and in ten minutes i am all scrubbed clean down at the breakfast table and THEN, then i find out that the above mentioned "shopping" ACTUALLY refers to sum grocery shopping, eeeeeeeew!!

well so after going to the market, and after half an hour of "do kilo aloo for Rs.10, GASP!!" and lotsa arguing, i'm back, theres karela for lunch, and possibly sumthing similar for dinner..........there is no justice in this world i tell u!!!

due to extreme boredom, picked up a copy of femina, read the astro part and was appauled,

" get the present guy completely out of ur syst…


so finally SUMONE is gonna start blogging, i am looking forward to THAT, sunshine!!

Today's fortune:
Stop searching forever, happiness is just next to you

well, i am here, so............


hey heyyyyyyyyy

so after all those days of irking ishan with "HEY BABY" turns out theres actually a movie called hey baby and its got vidya balan in it, so he wont get THAT irritated after all. :P
hmmm, what else, it seems a lil wierd u knw, that sumone likes me, well just looks like i am more used to ppl looking into my eyes, holding my hand and saying, HER NAME IS.................. he he, looks like a role reversal, but i'll try to be nice.

as of now, no new book, re reading a couple of old sheldons, nice,also lots of music, bryan adams mainly, a couple of movie songs here and there, awfully fond of a few bits so they keep running again and again. my sister thinks i have gone MAD,that i keep listening to Please forgive me again and again!!

so nuthing more to say now, looking forward to sumthing, dont knw wat but hope rtheres SUNSHINE and lots of it!!

Let me now sleep, let me not think, let me
Not ache with inconsistent tenderness
It was untenable delight; we are free--

well well well......

helloo helloo,

lets start with this now, over the last few weeks, i have come to knw 2 ppl called siddharth, ones sidd pandey, i told u abt him, that we talk and that hes a great guy, theres this other siddharth i cam to knw,sumtime ago, he's all intelligent and wants to do his phD so i call him sidd phD, well so abt him, he's this sweet guy who's all formal on the first meeting, very chivalrous, will pay ur bill and pull out ur chair(even at mcDonald's :P),so we casually saw each other nuthing much, nuthing great, he doesnt talk much and i, well.... so i thot i bored him to death,and so when i left i thot he'd be relieved, so i was surprised when i came to knw that he had asked for my number(we were the cover for this friend couple of ours), so he called me, yesterday, casually, we got to talking, and so looks like we have nuthing i common, except a lil bit of music and thats abt it, so he listens really carefully and quotes me later, remembers stuff, and yeah dis…


you have the slimmest body. the light fur
that covers it is lovely. lovelier
still is that gold-shot hair; that mouth, those eyes,
smiling, unmetaphysical and wise.
enough said, but beneath this you possess
that blend of gentle whim and forcefulness
that only a bartender of high class
could have poured out. may i request a glass?

he he works for me, read it again......


well someone persuaded me to let u knw sumthing abt me(dunno wat gud that'll do but still....) here i am:

20 SOMETHINGS ABT ME.................

1. i love books, reading is one of the things i do best and with utmost interest, love being alone with my books, can imagine a lot....2.hmmm, chivalry and courtesy impress me and i look forward to it in ppl, doesnt happen usually but still....3.i talk too much for my own good, i dont think its good but no self control....4.i am afraid of being lonely (lonely and alone are 2 different things) of the most important things life gave me are my frenz, they happen to let me cry, without asking why so i cant make it through without them6.i hate change,absolutely detest it!!.......7.i cant let go of things, be it old stuff or people.....8.the connaught place part of delhi is my favourite, soothes me sumhow,just a stroll, thats i dont like it when ppl refer to it as CP.9.i am scared of DEBT, n u dnt knw how much.10.i have rigid …


It was but yesterday we met in a dream.
You have sung to me in my aloneness, and I
Of your longings have built a tower in the sky
But now our sleep has fled and our dream is
Over, and it is no longer dawn.
The noontide is upon us and our half waking
Has turned to fuller day, and we must part.
If in the twilight of memory we should meet
Once more, we shall speak again together and you
Shall sing to me a deeper song.
And if our hands should meet in another dream
We shall build another tower in the sky. ANY DREAM WILL DO!!!

Doing Nothing.......................

Hey there!! u can see, I am up to, what I do best, Nothing!!
Well as suggested cleverly by someone, in order to write about this topic, I needed to get into the skin of the “character” and hence, do nothing, so after a day’s hard work on it, here I am….. so today was the usual lazy Sunday, you know there’s something, I am not really very fond of Sundays, don’t really know why, maybe its just that lazing around is best done when u know that u aren’t really supposed to, maybe that’s just my banter, moving on….

Even doing nothing gets very boring at times, so what does one do? Hmm, well I go back to my books, it makes me feel secure, it’s like a welcome reprieve from the untamable reality, u have no control over. well, so I went back to reading ANCIENT PROMISES, again, maybe because it’s one of my favorites, then again maybe because I identify with Janaki, the protagonist, more than anyone else, either way, you know every time I read this book, I think to myself could this ever be me?…