Saturday, September 29, 2007

hulooo!

heyloooo heyloooo

first things first, ankur just started blogging and my god! he's so good!!!!
i know i know, the blog is a little sad, but then when u look closer, he does write beautifully, its an insight into his brain, and i thank god that he started writing for these days we arent getting to talk much, all i get to hear is " accha main sone ja raha hoon" so the blog=great!!!!! akhil(who thinks i should be introduced to ounctuation) also has a blog now, iwould write more about it if he WROTE sumthing on it!!!!
priya will get her laptop soon too, but i am not expecting her to blog anytime soon, unlike us she has brains!love u brainy!!

hmm, wat else............anuj is in europe, has put up lovely pics on orkut, now suddenly i am in the mood to take nice pics too, but people have to around for that, otherwise photos get all lonely lonely, and then wats the point!!......ehem ehem!

so occupying myself these days by reading magazines( do NOT ask why!), i came accross this segment, it was a quiz titled, IS HE RIGHT FOR YOU??, well ladies, if u need to refer to a magazine to figure out whether or not you should be with the guy, then he is definitely NOT for you!!

aur kya...............hmmm SOMETHING is possibly materialising for saturday(touchwood).....lets see.......

really nice friday, green shirt and all.....lotsa people around but its okay i guess.............

it rained yesterday, i had fun............wanted to write lots about the rain, but ankur already did so........

and......................and nuthing..........

main to yahin hoon....:)
tell me sumthing i dont know...

love,
s.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

.............phew!!

oh god! devoting one whole long day just to studies is a difficult task i must say, ya ya i know it sounds bad but still, since not much studying has been going on anyways, so i guess its good only.

so i spoke to C yesterday, and since i already told him, he was bombarding me with all these questions, i dont blame him, he understands what i am thinking so these rapid fires are fun..................he is perhaps one of the people who get why i am the way i am, why i must tell someone everything and why i just cannot stay shut!!, :) well and thats why we are such great friends i think. so since we have these similar tastes and very similar thought processes, this is his take on my perfect guy; C strongly believes that the guy who recognises my NEED for pink shoes will probably be the one..................now did i SAY that was my theory, NO, so do NOT give me that look!

but i do love my shoes!!...........2nd love ;)

Monday, September 24, 2007

i am here,na!

"We need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on the planet... I mean, what does any one life really mean? But in a relationship, you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things... all of it, all of the time, every day. You're saying 'Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go un-witnessed because I will be your witness'."


i know u dislike saying things again and again, and then again, why should u say them again when once said lasts a lifetime but then........................life is too short, say what you have to today for we may not have enough time to put into words what we feel, then there'll be too much to regret,and this is not one of those conversations i want to leave unfinished, its going to last...its essence lingering, for i will be here, to listen to u and to be ur witness.

love,
s.

p.s.-50 yrs..................sigh!!

Friday, September 14, 2007

heyy, been sometime na, well although i had lots of things to say didnt know how to put them into words so just let them be since the intelligent people around me affirm that words arent very important always, but i wont learn will i??
so silly old me, back here to bug you with gibberish ji!!

went to air force museum today, hey bhagwan, such a bad trip, totally boring, even the planes didnt seem interesting,so we chucked it all and left,went to dilli haat, had fun, u know i observed sumthing, dilli haat is just one of those places which make you feel all cozy and where u shud definately take someone you feel an intimate connection with, yeah yeah, fancily i am saying its romantic and a place for couples but also that it just feels good, priya and harish satisfied themselves with hyderbadi food....they were just so glad.

ankur(swami) suddenly developed a craving for golgappas(he thinks abt THE QUEEN too much!) so he had three plates of golgappas, and the fruit beer and he was acting all bewada-ish. me and akhil,after roaming around for a while stopped and had rajasthani food,simple stuff, daal baati and all, spicy, just the way it should be.oh yeah, before i forget again, akhil finally got the laptop!....yay!!!!!!!......

things have been going well these days, touchwood, and i hope they become better, i am just so apprehensive all the time about this because i always end up being HEY BEST FRIEND, and thats it, i know people realise how i feel, so u will also realise that sometimes just letting me know how they feel is not enough, there is still a void which i hope they will try and fill, i know it is too much to ask for but i try to do my bit sincerely and hope i get something in return...too straight??......yeah thought so, might even be a little heartless, but main kya karoon, this is the only thing i do best..maybe.....

love
s.

p.s. it feels great, by the way, being someone's SOMEONE....thanku ji!

Monday, September 3, 2007

aankhon aakhon mein...........

C. went back today, back to where he lives, back to the place I cant keep calling him up and bug him all the time, but well I left that about a year ago, but still, he is one of my dearest friends, that’s why I am a little sad about this. Melodrama isn’t really our thing, somehow the complete nuts that we are, things tend to be a little weepy, so hence we cry and say our goodbyes, it is at the airport, when I see him off that he opens up his box of advices, he says since he is elder to me, for once I MUST listen to him, that there will always be boys but I am more important than any of them, that he knows I am wise enough to make my own intelligent decisions but I should just let him know in case I am faced with any such person who hurts me, and it strikes me yet again that he will indeed always be the same caring C. I always knew. He asks me about the important stuff in my life now, he wants to talk about what he already knows and what I haven’t told him yet, I tell him, everything, he says that its going to go places, that he is happy for me, when I give him the look, he says, this is just me, the unsure creature that I am, that things will happen, work out my way. I guess so.

But I am sure I never loved C., not like this at least, nope not even close. We always were on the same wavelength, so we went into something mistaking our feelings for love, I guess we were and will be the friends who tell each other stuff and be mad for no reason.

Hmmm, so what else, we are able to make those ten minutes for each other everyday now, and walk to the gate almost everyday, when we don’t I feel like I didn’t do something very important today, and missed out on incredible moments where time seems to stand still.

Somehow the world seems a little more crowded nowadays, it seems like people are around the corner just when we wish to talk to each other. It feels like those around us know what we are, no, what I am thinking.

Life seems to move sluggishly till 5 in the evening, and don’t know how, once we meet, there’s no stopping time. Well we all have our regrets don’t we?

Akhil and alagappa wale bhayya are redecorating their place, they are sweeties I tell you, but I hope akhil’s mood gets better, even though he’ll never agree that he’s sad. Please, akhil for me, for all of us, be your happy caring nice self again na, please. Priya my lovely is the same, cutie I tell you. Ankur is in a world of his own these days, can’t say more, later, maybe…but be happy always ankur, no matter what.

Will someone please tell those around us with their good intentions to stay a little away from me, or else I am going to go a little crazier than the normal healthy amount of crazy that I am. Oops, sorry…

98 not out, but it feels good to know that still going strong. Someone says that I will make it to 100, so shall I believe you or are you being too nice again??.......umm my unsure self, remember? Can’t help it.

I am reading a book by Manju Kapur right now, kabhi kabhi lagta hai, baaki sab bhi, kitabon ki tarah aasan hota toh?, life seems better those lovely eyes around, sometimes I think that I can read those too, like the books I love, but I am biased, a lot of times I think I see what I want to, sometimes those eyes reflect what my own heart may lack the courage to. We stand at that place almost everyday, now tell me what can I do except laugh when you look at me with all the seriousness in the world and ask me, jaana hai kya??, why will I ever want to leave…………..who would want to leave you? You who are everything, so unassuming and one who is so easy to love, ab kucch bhi mat bol!!

I will be here baba, I am not going anywhere, you are too important for me to let go.

I don’t know if my tiny bit of love has any meaning at all in your life, It is ok if it doesn’t, I know there are many more important people out there, who make you very happy and I only hope that whatever gives you happiness stays with you always. And as for me, I am here, turn to me when there’s anything wrong, I will be here, whenever you need me, I am here and for me that is about it.

Finally Monday, and life is up and running again! But Tuesday is a holiday!!!

See you then (if people allow!!),
Love (which wont go anywhere!!)
Me (if that’s okay!!)