Thursday, December 31, 2009
Past the old house where we first met.
The moon shone, and the path was wet
No one passed by us as we strolled
Though hand in hand
We did not speak. Our hands grew cold.
We did not deal in words or tears
At the dead light we did not rage
What change had crept through our forked years
We did not have the will to gauge.
And thus emotions become hesitant and uncertain, the present situation leads to past memories . . . and the end is an acceptance of the designs of life, and its obstructions.
Goodbye 2009. You take along both sorrow and joy, and leave behind remembrance.
Happy new year.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Priya's 22 now, it was her "Paarteh" too you see. (i love u man :) )
more later, now I'll go work towards making sensation return to my feet (sigh...Dancing !!)
p.s.- I tried the whole salt-vodka-lemon wedge thing, looks like I can hold my drink :D
P.P.S-Yeah, I'm gonna stick to Earl Grey (danish & ankur approve! )
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Not ache with inconsistent tenderness.
It was untenable delight; we are free--
Separate, equal--and if loverless,
Love consumes time which is more dear than love,
More unreplicable. With everything
Thus posited, the choice was clear enough
And daylight ratified our reckoning.
Now only movement marks the birds from the pines;
Now it's dark; the blinded stars appear;
I am alone, you cannot read these lines
Who are with me when no one else is here,
Who are with me and cannot hear my voice
And take my hand and abrogate the choice.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
I love what I do not have. You are so far.
My loathing wrestles with the slow twilights.
But night comes and starts to sing to me.
The moon turns its clockwork dream.
The biggest stars look at me with your eyes.
And as I love you, the pines in the wind
want to sing your name with their leaves of wire.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
I am completely biased to this book of his since its about his wife, a tamilian brahmin from chennai. So I can say that the jabs he takes at "my" people are completely justified!!
Also, I have been born and brought up in delhi, so the pot shots taken at "my other people" - the punjabis, are not completely over the top either.
read it, if you have the time, for the one liners. Bollywood should make this one a movie.
Thanks Danish, a good read. Keep 'em coming.
P.s. I went shopping. proper shopping, Bag shoes clothes, the works!! I knw the world celebrates children and mothers, but we need fathers too :)
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Have you also noticed how we fall in love with most impossible people? We don't fall in love with the girl who saves us a seat on the bus, who cares when we fall ill, we don't fall in love with the guy whose world we light up when we merely walk into the room. No, We do not.
But we do fall in love with the man who doesn't know we exist, the man who'll probably never come around to feeling that we do.
You know why we do what we do?
The Laws of Love, Which lay down who is to be loved by whom, and how much. Actually, it isn’t a law, a theorem, because those have some basis. It is an axiom. No reason, no argument, just that it is.
P.s. Can't think of a title for ths one, got any ideas?
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
मधु घट फूटा ही करते हैं
लघु जीवन ले कर आए हैं
प्याले टूटा ही करते हैं
फ़िर भी मदिरालय के अन्दर
मधु के घट हैं,मधु प्याले हैं
जो मादकता के मारे हैं
वे मधु लूटा ही करते हैं
वह कच्चा पीने वाला है
जिसकी ममता घट प्यालों पर
जो सच्चे मधु से जला हुआ
कब रोता है चिल्लाता है
जो बीत गई सो बात गई!
Why do we social network so much anyways? Where is the contentment? It seems that people are putting up photos and coming up with quirky status messages only to vie for others' attention, doesn't sound like an adequate reason.I am confused, along the way, its become hard to differentiate whether people are truly happy or just trying to show someone that they are ?
I want to leave again.
I am leaving again, There's no one there i want to keep in touch with, there's no one whose photos/life interests me, there's no one there.
There's no one there.
P.s.- Its good that i don't develop this feeling towards my blog. Not yet at least.
Monday, September 28, 2009
As Rajnikant sang in some crappy hindi movie from the 80's " Aaj sunday hai, aaj sunday haaai....aaj daru peene ka day hai!!"
You get the point!
Monday, September 21, 2009
Nothing else to tell, Aakash is on a road trip to Leh....I know I know, scenic beauty comes to mind when I say Leh..... the open roads, the fresh air, the non-pollution, Nature......I didn't get a chance to do that, cause before i heard road trip i heard the words "my friend's Bike" blended in nonchalantly.
BIKE = MOTORCYCLE, and when Aakash says bike, that would imply he shall be driving the damn thing through the mountains....... did you not hear, AAKASH PARASHER, bike, Ladakh, Leh, Srinagar, Kargil?!?
Parasher, you better not die!!
Friday, September 18, 2009
i sense i must adopt a sane and spare
philosophy to ease a restless state
fueled by this uncaring. it will state
a very meager truth: love like the rest
of our emotions, sometimes needs a rest.
happiness, too, no doubt; and so, why even
hope that 'the course of true love' could run even?
Following the genius of Seth's Poetry ardently, still!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
We had known each other our entire lives, me as that guy from my class, the popular one, him as that girl from my class, the one with the pigtails, but we really hit it off in class 9th, somehow, god knows how. It began over some history notes i guess, he called home to remind me to get them along, I told him i remembered and then we giggled. That was the first of innumerable more phone calls, sometimes it felt like i spent half of the years 2003-2006 on the phone!! We'd talk, sometimes seriously, sometimes quipping over people we knew and the things they did. He got my irrational fears, he let me cry, always and bloody hell, did i cry always! We also laughed all the time, about something or the other, That one time about Nothing at all, for about 40 minutes.
We never fought, ever.
Maybe we should have, atleast we'd have learnt how to cope with it, we fought once and it has lasted forever, it is my fault, i stopped being a friend along the way. I forgot how to be the friend, and never re-learnt it.I stopped being there for him. The only thing i gathered along the way is how to hate my self a little more.
I know he is only a phone call away, I can call him,I should call him. He will be the same guy, he will be there for me, but the thought gnaws at my soul, inch by inch, The thought that I'll never be the friend again, that it'll never be the same again, that i broke something so precious. Maybe it is an excuse, maybe I just don't want to make the effort, but I can't look myself in the eye. I can't cause more pain and cause more damage than I've already done, The relationship I called the most important in my life, is not mine to ruin anymore.
Before, it was the relationship I couldn't put into words, now it is this dreadful feeling that clenches my throat and makes me face the fact that i am ashamed of myself, that i'll never respect myself again.
Everyone told me I was in love with him, but I loved him yes but never romantically, but maybe I should have been,a break up with a boyfriend is easier than breaking up with A friend, it is breaking away a part of yourself, but I did it anyways. As a consequence, as a punishment, I have stopped being a friend to anyone,I no longer capable of complete committed emotions, I don't embark on that journey since I know that I'll fail, I fail the relationship, I'll fail the emotion, Myself - I have already failed.
"I am so sorry, I am so sorry. I hope you don't think of me anymore, I hope you have written me out of your life. I hope you hate me so much that you don't even think about me once or that over the years I become someone you knew, who was a part of your life, who died....because that is what happened."
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Don't you think we go through life, never realizing the impact of something like this, the concept of mortality is lost on us. . . that is, until it happens to one of us.
Rest in peace, Gurnek. Bye.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
i know i know Cheap thrills, but in a banian less world, i would like to chedo a few "ITEMS".... but i think priya and I already do that!!
so we had a pasta soiree today, invitees-priya ankur akhil aakash. pasta wasnt too great, company was! arre it was nice yaar, its been a long time. :P(i didn't go to college on friday after all)
and yes till the aakash cuts the mop growing on his head, i shall be referring to the hair as a separate entity- A Miss Marion Gray, an eccentric "ageing" club singer struggling to get by and inviting criticism from one and all, her life is lonely, she was a beauty in her youth, her only loyal fan is aakash parasher. . . i like Miss Marion, i liked her better before so will get her the elixir of youth(will go from the local barber to Mr.Jawed Habib!!)
Nautanki enough! i am going now, just dont say the words, cheese mayo or pasta for the next two days.
okay you can say cheese after a day.
FINE.....you may say cheese after an hour.
!!! chal McVeggie khate hain!!....with cheese of course, Write it! McVeggie goes with cheese, they're like Danish and Sarcasm, Pandey and Propulsion, Ankur and "not drinking".....Tarnacha and BLT!!......don't you dare separate them, they are NOT and Juliet, Shakespeare and satire, Oscar Wilde and chick lit or My nani and the concept of personal space !!
Friday, September 4, 2009
be able to break the routine...but i can't.
to be late.
just sit there staring,silent, without a hundred thoughts in my head.
not ache over little things.
Hazaaron khwaishen aisi.............
Friday, August 28, 2009
Saturday, August 22, 2009
so yes, it rained cats and dogs yesterday, and yes we got drenched. and yes, it was great, priya, ankur, akhil and I, being mad in the rain, just like we usually do, did a little rain dance and went to eat at the cafe.
doesnt maggi taste great in the rain!!
i hope we always have this. just us, a little mad, always in love.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
p.p.s- I finally saw Love Aaj Kal, loved it. Immediately called up prakhar and bullied him into watching it, also had a heart-to-heart about life, love and much/mush else...again!
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
1. do not encourage impromptu plans with him
2. do NOT sit on a bike he is "driving"
3. do not miss Tarnacha's class to go meet him
P.s. -This "He" is a friend of mine, Cynical, abstract and a much better guy than he thinks he is. but still he should be kept away from bikes!!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
So late into the night,
Though the heart still be as loving,
And the moon still be as bright.
For the sword outwears its sheath,
And the soul outwears the breast,
And the heart must pause to breathe,
And love itself have rest.
Though the night was made for loving,
And the day returns too soon,
Yet we'll go no more a-roving
By the light of the moon.
P.s.- this one by Lord Byron, caught my eye in a very boring Aircraft Maintenance class, looks like Lord Byron was thinking like me, way back in 1817 !
Monday, July 27, 2009
well this has taken so much effort, time, self doubt and trips to the 6th floor, I can't really imagine the original baby process being too difficult...(i didn't say labor, i said baby!)
Friday, July 24, 2009
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Only the custom stays,
Educing from the past,
The undying days.
We talk only
Of us, only of us and what went wrong.
Curious, I suppose to note how our rich strong
Companionship has thinned to this lament.
So all the way from home P.G. to office, i have been clicking useless pictures of everything I see, (give the girl a camera and this is what u get!) and I finally gave that up when a cow I was trying to click, refused to pose and grunted instead, that was the end of my Annie leibovitz ambitions. Here in office boss-man and taklu have already asked me twice wether its my last day, aww, they're nice guys and I am glad that I am leaving !!
so see you Bangalore,
I am sure I'll come again,
but for now it's back to Delhi - back HOME!!
p.s.- I must be growing up, since I am not starting phone conversations with friends by saying, "did u die or something yesterday ?"
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
the office is a magical place, since there is so much free time that a loose train of thought can actually form and take you on an eerie trip to places you thought you had locked away in that head of yours and thrown the key away. but more on that later.
So its Akhil's birthday today, so Happy birthday, love! I wish we were all there to celebrate the day and prevent you from vegging out in front of the TV, watching news and updating us on the same later. But I am sure we'll PAAARTY once we all get there, so is it going to be Ruby tuesday again? :P
So here's to Akhil . Initially mistaken as Akhilese, the man with "killer" looks and these days Vividh Bharati, whose love for me never diminishes, even though I by and large make his life hell, Who is probably the only man in the world I can fight with and follow it with "so lunch?". For I love you, man and always will (that is if you are my constant companion in Sarojini trips, oh kidding, you know you'll have to go to Atta too!).
Clunk. (champagne flutes clinking. :)
So in other news, it is my second last day at work, ah the sweet voice of me that I'll be able to hear in two days, during 9-6 that is!. The boss is hyperactively jumping around, pretending to be oh so busy, and his work-wife, lovingly called Taklu (by me!) has decided to learn the nuances of kannada.
Let me tell you more about Taklu, he's a punjabi chap, not married I assume since his mom calls him twice a day, he did once refer to me as Shivani...He and my boss have a committed relationship, They share a wall, and the love trancends all barriers.Taklu speaks french and the boss-man doesn't,they're currently teaching each other their language. They converse in half sentences, which one begins and the other ends. Aww.The language of love.
(by the way it was taklu who conveyed the tragic passing of Michael Jackson to the boss-man, and was inturn his shoulder to cry upon)
The HR department has informed me that I shall get my letter tommorow, or their exact words were, " tom-aah-row, tom-aah-row, we have a raaaather standard f-aah-rmat for trainees. yesyes, tom-aah-row!".
whoohoo, toom-aah-row it is !
Hmm So I woke up at 8.21 am for a workday which starts at 9 am. To think it ends in 2 days. :)
p.s. As I type this, one of the "men" around me are using Ponds dreamflower talcum powder, again the pink one.
To let it be, to travel with it, as he did, is much the harder thing to do.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Monday, July 6, 2009
For some the valleys of frustration seem longer,
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Spent the weekend lazying around and "welcoming" new roommate. Spoke to Parasher on and off,that was interesting. Also wasted money on a useless Danielle Steel (which i finished last night at 2.30, what a waste of time/money/hope), also bought a book of love poems- dirt cheap and "invested" in cosmopolitan and instyle UK, picked up some stuff for the sister.
I was reading a couple of my previous posts on this blog, those from over a year ago and it only affirmed the fact that everything seemed so much bigger then, so much more important, every picture was always a little hazy, hence more beautiful. You know the only thing that has changed at all in these years is my perspective, all those things are still the same, its me who has done an about turn, sometimes for the better, some other times with destructive results. It still amazes me.
I have suddenly developd this strange feeling, it feels like the walls are closing in on me, and I wan't nothing but to run away, but wherever I go, there I am. I run mostly from myself than from others, and yeah, well thats it.
hmm now I almost wish the cubicles around me were occupied, it's easier to lose oneself in a sea of people.
damn it, I'll run one of these days. I'll atleast JOG.
Friday, July 3, 2009
2. How much cash do you have in your wallet right now?
50 bucks I guess. :(
3. What’s a word that rhymes with DOOR?
4. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
5. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
Anything as long as it isn’t clubbed under the BHANGRA MEETS HIP HOP genre.
6. What are you wearing right now?
Not a smile, definitely. Damn u boss!
7. Do you label yourself?
Hmm… :P I do label myself SHRILL at times.
8. Name the brand of the shoes you currently own?
Is Sarojini Nagar streetwear a brand?
9.Bright or Dark Room?
I am a creature of the night……na who am I kidding, I sleep at 10 but I like a dark
10. What does your watch look like?
I am sorry to sound painstakingly redundant, but it looks like a watch.
12. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Chatting with someone.Playing antakshari on gtalk :P
13. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
Idea aapke liye laya hai………………………. (I have no life!)
14. What’s a word that you say a lot?
Damn it…..wait those are two words, aren’t they. Damn it!
15. Who told you he/she loved you last
16. Last furry thing you touched? eh?
I stay away from furry things, ewe .
17. Favourite age you have been so far?
18. What was the last thing you said to someone? in person?
To the Boss :Yes sir……Yes sir……Sure sir…….(while thinking to myself– Ullu ka pattha!)
19.The last song you listened to?
Adjacent cubicle guy’s carnatic ringtone .
20. Where did you live in 1987?
Does this question apply to those born in 1989?
21. Are you jealous of anyone?
22. Is anyone jealous of you?
Na I don’t think so.
23. Name three things that you have on you at all times?
Lip gloss, my spectacles, smile.
24. What’s your favourite town/city?
25. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it?
Does a desperate cry for help on a tissue count?
26. Can you change the oil on a car?
27. Your first love/big crush: what is the last thing you heard about him/her?
I heard his voice, last night when I was on the phone with him.
28. Does anything hurt on your body right now?
29.What is your current desktop picture?
Yellow and red maple trees.
30. Have you been burnt by love?
Maybe.I guess so, but then who hasn’t?
Thursday, July 2, 2009
- Grown men using sms lingo all the time. "enuf is enuf" and who says muzik??
- People asking me what my "good name" is?. . . sir, I don't have a good name, I do however, have a name, can I tell you that?
- Men in V-Neck pull overs, acid washed jeans, wearing gold chains, flashing their N-series "dabba sized" phones with bluetooth and carnatic music ringtones all in the name of "Friday Casual dressing"
- People who say stuff like " I like to walk in the rain coz then no one can see my tears", I would like to punch such people in the face and let them out in the rain. Jaa ro le.
- Women who cringe when I say what the fuck and give me a look which says, " Swati please, that is so inappropriate." WTF!
- Also women who belive "sex and the city" is in all probability a porn movie, and when you enquire if they have it claim that "we don't watch such things."
- My boss. who thinks he is a stud and should invest in a deoderant / talcum powder And who should now recover from the Death of Michael Jackson. Last week he heard the news and sat glued to the chair for 10 minutes repeating to himself, "Noooo, . . . really?".
- Akhil GARG!! who doesn't call or anything, doesn't react to calls, doesn't send messages. CALL man, CALL!
- The Viral Fever that has currently taken over my dad. my dad, the sweet cute motu man with a moustache who doesn't get peace of mind till he has been to the office and yelled over random stuff, felt guilty and apologised. Who has now been told to stay home for the next 3 days.
- The fact that I can't think of a No.10.
So you get it, I am not in a good mood. Leave a comment or something, brighten my day. Kyunki
I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.I am bored.
Hey did I say I am bored?, well you know I don't say stuff out loud anyways.
no no, not just because its friday and I get to spend two days lazying around in my pyjamas, and the fact that i get a respite from my boss who reminds me of the bully mouse from Tom & Jerry, or the fact that when bored I don't have to sit and stare at my blog till my eyes water, or that the ganju guy is growing a stubble on his head now, or that my cubicle-sharer is absent today and I am the sole cubicle-occupier, or the fact that I might meet Sam tomorrow or perhaps that despite his reputation the cook did NOT cook something called "chou chou" last night, or that after dinner I saw Harish and had a great time.or that..........wait, what was i saying??
yeah I am happy that Vikram Seth is writing a sequel to A Suitable Boy. . . . . It is called a A Suitable Girl and will come out by Autumn 2013, and when it does I will so be in line at 4 am in the morning, possibly with ankur and priya by my side :)
Wait 2013, thats about 4 years down the line, where do you think I'll be anyways ? Would I have given into my nani's not so subtle "get married" request? Would I have a High Paying Job or would I be one of those Phd chics? Would I have a boyfriend to bully around? If so, will Ankur still be reffered to as My dukhiyara pati ? Would Akhil still be sulking ? Would Sid Pandey still be working on his report from last night ? Would Harish be on his way to being a Proffessor who uses the line "hey!, the bell doesn't dismiss you, I dismiss you." ?, Would my sister stop saying "eww boys!!" ? Would Rahul Gandhi become PM ? Would Salma Hayek still be with the french chap? Will she give me Antonio Banderas' Phone number ? . . . . .
err you get the picture.
comments and suggestions related to me seeking psychiatric help are welcome.
P.s.- Going out to dinner, returning at an "ungodly" hour, then sitting down to chat with people till 2.30 am, finally sleeping, waking up feeling like the lead in the movie "THE HANGOVER" and having one cup of chai in the morning.... man now I am wondering where the energy to process and relay the staggering info is coming from.
As Pandu is probably saying to himself while reading the post "HYPER". . . yes...i agree :)
"yahaan saare ganje kyun hain??!!??"
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
He wore old-fashioned spectacles that made him look earnest and completely belied his easy-going charm and juvenile but totally disarming sense of humor. That he had deep dimples when he smiled and that they stayed on long after his smile left his eyes.
In those early amorphous years when memory had only just begun, when life was full of Beginnings and no Ends, and everything was For Ever, I thought of ourselves together as Me, and separately, individually, as We or Us.
Displaying a stubborn single-mindedness, I fell in love. It was easy to love him, everything else was effort.
He was the first man I loved, and I never really stopped.
I was the first woman who loved him and yet, He never really began.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
"We do not Even kiss goodnight, yet wake to friendliness Is it perhaps the tiredness in my mind Or the fear of a structure set."
"We do not
Even kiss goodnight, yet wake to friendliness
Is it perhaps the tiredness in my mind
Or the fear of a structure set."
Thus the present reality is aided by a recollection of the past, however fitful and temporary that may be. A reliving of intimacy that is no more, yet it remains.
- out of the blue phone call
- a chic flick
- hot maggi!
- 70% off sales :)
- nonsense conversation
- vanilla ice-cream
- THAT rain-on-mud smell
- Old photographs
- Dusty books with secret notes
- The mountains
- The Little box on the pillow with a ribbon on it
- Smiley strangers
- Forgotten 10 rupee notes in pockets
Monday, June 29, 2009
I feel like Chandler at work . . . . either free as a bird or sitting there till 8 worrying about the WENUS (watch FRIENDS, u'll get it!) .
So on one of my "free as a bird days", This is my list of all the people I want to talk to right now :
1. Anuj - since its been a long time, and I am an idiot.
2. Samarth - since our last conversation was great and u're the MAN!!
3. Priya- cause i must must tell u about the bald guy from work and coz i love u baby!
4. Ankur - to tell u that my french boss sounds exactly like Clouseau from Pink Panther.
5. Akhil - aise hi :)
6. Prakhar - oh babe, theres so much you don't know yet !!!
7. Neha (Jain & Dua) - well gossip :)
8. Mr.Parasher - to discuss something random and get into a heated argument over nothing.
9. My sister, whose birthday was yesterday - coz i still don't know what to get u. help me!
10. Danish, The count of devonshire - to realise how obsolete anything i am reading is :P
11. Sid Pandey (who's caught up in metaphors, who thinks he is the cake and the cherry and
the icing and what not) - well cause we were remaking (and starring in) the motorcycle diaries and it was fun :)
12. Salma Hayek - to check if she's still with that french chap and while at it, to get Antonio Banderas' phone number.
13. The Queen - to butter her up into setting me up with Will :P
14. Yes, I agree with you, maybe a psychiatrist too :)
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
On top of it, I seem to have developed a cold and sore throat (how??!!) and the only sound coming out me during office hours is a mellow sniffle. Damn it! I will lose my voice by the time I get to Delhi.
In other news, the only cute guy in my office has gone and shaved his head, so now amongst the sea of Balas and Gopalas that make up my office, it is impossible to tell him apart (well, you get the point!).
I am ranting at work now and hence must leave, Damn it!!!!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
This light of the early evening is the same.
Two could walk in that door,
Talk, laugh, live, play. . . Love,
Two could lie, side by side,
To count the stars,
on the ceiling above.
Here two could be happy and sad
Yes Two could. . . . . . . .Two would.
Love, Like the rest
Of our emotions, sometimes needs a rest.
Happiness, too, no doubt.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Flowers I ache from the perfumes of spring.
I have forgotten your face,
I no longer Remember your hands;
how did your lips Feel on mine?
Because of you, I love the white statues
Drowsing in the parks, the white statues that
Have neither voice nor sight.
I have forgotten your voice, your happy voice;
I have forgotten your eyes.
Like a flower to its perfume, I am bound to
My vague memory of you. I live with pain
That is like a wound; if you touch me, you will
Make to me an irreperable harm.
Your caresses enfold me, like climbing
Vines on melancholy walls.
I have forgotten your love, yet I seem to
Glimpse you in every window.
Because of you, the heady perfumes of
Summer pain me; because of you, I again
Seek out the signs that precipitate desires:
Shooting stars, falling objects.
Friday, June 12, 2009
A romantic song plays in the background; it makes me think, not of him, but of the time that I would think of him, all the time, song or no song. Well you know, I did fall in love, and eventually out of it, it was a wonderful time, time was always short when we were together and it was always too slow when we were apart. But then that’s how love is, that’s how it makes you feel. And even when its not around anymore, it always leaves great memories.
Some love stories aren’t epic novels, some are short stories,
But that doesn’t make them any less filled with love.
This is to all those people,
Who have been in love,
Who are in love
Who just fell in love
And to those who are hoping to fall in love again.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saw a cute guy at baggage claim today, our eyes met over a cobalt blue suitcase, and smiled, we lost each other soon thereafter, but it was great while it lasted..
I smiled at you because I thought that you
Were someone else; you smiled back; and there grew
Between two strangers in a library
Something that seemed like love; but you loved me
(If that's the word) because you thought that I
Was other than I was. And by and by
We found we'd been mistaken all thewhile
From that first glance, that first mistaken smile.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
The same night whitens, in the same branches.
We, from that time, we are not the same.
I don’t love her, that’s certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the breeze to reach her.
Another’s kisses on her, like my kisses.
Her voice, her bright body, infinite eyes.
I don’t love her, that’s certain, but perhaps I love her.
Love is brief: forgetting lasts so long.
Since, on these nights, I held her in my arms,
my soul is not content to have lost her.
Though this is the last pain she will make me suffer,
and these are the last lines I will write for her.
and then sometimes we make promises that we don't keep, but that doesn't stop us does it?
Thursday, April 9, 2009
beautifies the mountaintops, kissing the green meadows
with its golden face and making streams sparkle as if by
magic. But then it suddenly permits the nastiest clouds to
ride across its heavenly face, and it hides from the forlorn
world, sneaking off to the west in disgrace. In exactly this
way, early one morning my sun shone on my face with
triumphant splendor, but alas he was only mine for one
hour. The clouds have hidden him from me now. But I
don't fault him for this at all. Golden men like him can
disgrace themselves as much as the real sun does.
simplifying Shakespeare and applying him in daily life :)
Friday, April 3, 2009
So lets see, my friend Neha has finally labelled me the most boring person she knows, I would take offense but its (kind of) true.... So here are five places I would like to go be boring in - :
1. Vatican City - For all the art
2. New York - For all the chaos
3. Germany - For the History
4. Ladakh - for the space
5. London - Cause i want to :)
i am going to leave u with this for now,
p.s.- Our Quiz went well, aakash won (no rigging!!)
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Monday, March 2, 2009
it is Monday and already i have begun to become lazy, well, about college, about work and about life in general, sometimes it feels like life is too long, but then i guess this lull too is temporary, soon i'll be up and about again.
I recently visited Chandigarh, Punjab Engineering College to be precise, in order to find about about this project we are pursuing wholeheartedly, well lets just say the model was a couple of hundred years old and we felt like students of Aero-archeology rather than Aerospace! The college campus is pretty impressive, very similar to IIT-D, well you know it has reaffirmed my belief that any institution earns its good name on the basis of its students and their performance, and hence al our Amity-Lamenting is genuinely a way to put off our own shortcomings.
About Chandigarh, well, having been there only for a day, I can tell you this, that the city is very similar to Delhi (well i am biased to Delhi and look for it everywhere), i mean in the space area especially, to say its very well planned would be like saying that Pradeep is a south indian. The only thing that separates it from Delhi is the pace of the city, it is much more relaxed, laid back and it surprises me that i cannot find anything to hate there..... hence nice place overall!
In more college news, the fest, as expected is fast heading towards crappy-dom..... got into a verbal tiff with a junior and almost made the guy cry, he couldn't tolerate the fact that i thought his fashion show idea was shit. we are to start working on our projects soon, maybe tommorow, so good luck.
nothing much, verma is still bald, garg is still tiny and akhil is still "rabbit-ing" (and letting everyone know!)...
swati "very bored" srini
Friday, February 20, 2009
life is just how it has been for a long long time, a stream of running water, hitting a few rocks here and there but by and large bouncing back to carry on,
i am unable to decide whether this is good or bad, but it sure is comfortable and convenient.
the recent feeling of unrest has now passed,
i have now given up the guilt of making someone really sad in the course of the past year,
since that person has moved on and is now happy,
"well man, i am happy for you". . . and to his new cheery attitude,
well love does make the world go round!
you know this sort of feels like there always turn out to be people we were meant to be with,
and ishan, its so great that now you have that person in your life all over again.
hope life's great for you and everything is smooth (touch wood!)
crappy college college days are here, i wake up with a profound feeling of not going through the hassle of getting to college but well, you gotta do what you gotta do.
i swear i only do it because of these idiots i am in love with, Ankur Priya!!!!
so our college is doing our first major fest in april and god save us all....
in the name of goodwill ankur, priya and i have taken up the responsibility of the general quiz and god save those who are participating. i recently heard that there are plans of naming the cultural fest something like "aghast" and upon hearing that i, too, was Aghast! ..... i tell you theres no point blaming Amity when people themselves are trash....subham,get a life!
i realised that i can tolerate bus crowds in Noida but cannot, and i mean, CANNOT stand to be around anyone remotely related to THE CHENNAI..... my mum seems to be seriously worried about this fact.
there is a lot of courtesying going on in class, after all we are very polite people....*wink wink*
catch ya later then,
p.s. i spare you the intricate details of my progress on the projects i am doing at college, since this is a blog and not a "daily log" as Mr.Pandey maintains (although there hasn't been much maintaining going on ever since the man got his 8 pointer, so there hasnt been any connecting with us little people!!)
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
When most I wink, then do mine eyes best see,
For all the day they view things unrespected;
But when I sleep, in dreams they look on thee,
And, darkly bright, are bright in dark directed.
Then thou, whose shadow shadows doth make bright—
How would thy shadow's form form happy show
To the clear day with thy much clearer light,
When to unseeing eyes thy shade shines so?
How would, I say, mine eyes be blessèd made
By looking on thee in the living day,
When in dead night thy fair imperfect shade
Through heavy sleep on sightless eyes doth stay?
All days are nights to see till I see thee,
And nights bright days when dreams do show thee me.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
so first things first, Happy new year .... another year has walked in on us, hope I succeed in making it as great as i want it to be.happy 2009.
well as for the title of this post, i am back from the week long college trip touring Kanpur and Ranchi...and lets just say i have learnt a few things,
1. i have new found respect for the IAF, and how it works.
2. in UP, Jharkhand, Chattisgarh, u cud name a town anything and get away with it...... CHOPAN, EKDIL, MAEL to name a few.
3. i am learning to open my mind to different types of people, and shut my mind to sum others.
4. Danish has 70 uncles,scattered over UP......!?@#!
and after all that hard work..............
catch ya later then,