Wednesday, May 23, 2012

"its a little bit funny, this feeling inside. . . I'm not one of those who can, easily hide. . . "

So sang Elton John in what used to be a favorite song of mine, back in college. . .but college was years ago, it was a couple of great friends ago. It was before I knew better. It was before I sat in front of a computer all day and made polite conversation with colleagues. It was before I met the love of my life and got married. College was before the only people I call friends moved to another continent. College was before I felt horrible about losing friends but claimed I didn't miss them anymore.

I do miss you guys, the parts of my life that you lived in, you left empty. You moved on and I move around bearing the imprints of your friendship on my tiny heart, no one matches up or rather I don't try any more. It was easier to bump into people and become friends when we were aimless kids, we're still aimless but everyone comes with an expiry date now.

Or maybe the expiry date was always there, but I never saw it then.

at this point, my mailbox is so full of unread junk that I am actually considering opening a new account instead. . . .

Ah Blackberry. . .